I went home this weekend to attend a dear friend’s wedding. It was a beautiful wedding of two people who went through quite a lot to be together and who are madly and truly in love and committed to each other despite the difficulties they have faced. Normally at weddings I have my cheese meter on and am prepared to be kindly amused by the gushy photos and cheesy sentiments expressed. I don’t know if I have changed or if this wedding was just different but there was nothing silly about it. Every kiss, every look, every whispered “I love you” was so real I could feel it. When the groom started singing to his bride as they danced I felt, not amused, but happy.
I initially thought this was a bad weekend for me to be gone. I am still house-hunting and not anywhere near settled. I really, really want to be settled. I want my stuff back and I want to feel the comfort of having my own place. Of being home. Now at the end of my weekend, I realize that I needed it. I have been so frustrated and stressed out that I haven’t allowed myself to relax. I now feel recharged and ready to face the decisions I have to make in the next week or so. So that is good.
I am spending the afternoon trying to get caught up on blogs which has made me crave my knitting, blogging, and communicating with friends. I am so ready to get back to my creative pursuits. To real life. Please forgive me for not being very communicative of late. I have been a bad blogger. For instance, I have been meaning to write about fun Estes Park and the good times I had there but haven’t been able to get around to it. It feels a little late for a full recap now but I will say it was fun to have my sister there, to see some of my favorite Utah knitters, and to meet-up with some new and familiar Colorado knitters. I even got a special going away gift from the grrrls at my old SnB group.
Gifts from home.
These women (and one man) are fun, thoughtful, giving, kind, interesting, smart, diverse, and all around class acts. It was an honor to knit with you. Thank you for thinking of me and welcoming me into the group. I hope to knit with you all again really soon.
I think I am having a sentimental afternoon. It feels good though. I like Colorado–I just needed a break from internalizing my move. I am ready to go back in just a couple short hours. I am starting again to feel more like myself. I think I will feel home again really soon.
The following 17 comments were originally left at blogspirit:
I think it’s funny how sometimes life throws you exactly what you need — like a much-needed break. I also think big moves are one of those deceptively simple things — they can take a lot more out of us that we may expect. I’ll keep my fingers crossed that you get settled soon!
I did a big move from NYC to Chicago a while back. It was hard but the best thing I’ve ever done. Hang in there!!
It sounds like you’re getting settled – in life and soon in home. I can’t wait to read that you’ve found a place and that you’re stuff is where it should be. Then you can get back to knitting your beautiful things and blogging about them. I hope you find another great group of people to knit with!
We miss ya, girl, but we’re glad you’re getting settled.
I am bummed I couldn’t see you this weekend. It was totally my fault as I forgot and then had already committed to “puppy-sitting” for my parents because it was their anniversary. I am glad that you were able to relax and have a nice break, though! I will be seeing you in just four short weeks…can’t wait!
It’s hard to go through the process of change, the changes of self, the changes of place, the changes of friends, etc. It won’t take long before CO feels like home and you settle into a new life.
You do beautiful work. What a great blog!
Sounds like a good weekend… CO should only get better from here.
It is so nice to read about a wedding that was sincere and sweet. I’m glad you had a good time.
Keeping up with the blogs is hard; don’t worry about it for now. The most important thing is to get settled and then you’ll be ready to post again. It’s so hard to be uprooted, even if it’s ultimately for the best.
I hope your able to feel home again real soon! There is nothing like that feeling.
Sounds like you where at one amazing wedding : ) and it looks like you have some wonderful treats from home.
you’re in a different place AND it was a really great wedding…..and so wouldn’t have been the same w/o you. your perfect house is waiting for you to find it….can’t wait to see how this all turns out!
Such a thoughtful glimpse into your life, it doesn’t seem right to type a quick sentence & leave again. Thanks for keeping us up to date, and I certainly can’t wait to see where you do settle down. Good thing there is knitting and the occasional blog, though, to keep unsettled feeling at least familiar!
Hope things get really settled soon, and that you find somewhere to live, so you can start to relax! And get back to that knitting and ‘real life’- i know exactly what you mean! :0)
Glad you had a good trip home! Don’t worry about the not-blogging! You’re in major transition, and we all know you’ll resume knitblogging soon! I am excited to see what great apartment you find!
It will take a little time for you to be settled, esp. once you find your own place, but you will feel settled and CO will be home.
Good to see you’re posting again, and have found a welcoming new group. Hope you’re all settled in soon and that you’ve found time for some theraputic knitting. Have a great weekend!
Moving is a transition on every level – it is a big shift for the mind too, and sometimes takes a little while to catch up with you I wish you the best, girl!